it's my life

Saturday, January 24, 2009

OVERWHELMED!
A BILLION THANKS TO RYAN!
dunno how to describe the feelings,
first the dance was damn beautiful!
now u made a video for us!
felt so LOVE!
hahah

GOD'S WILL
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first

His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway, it almost
Made me hurt

Will don't walk too good
Will don't talk too good
He won't do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood

I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will

Will's mom had to work two jobs
We'd watch him when she had to work late
And we'd all laugh like I hadn't laughed
Since I don't know when

Hey Jude was his favorite song
At dinner he'd ask to pray
And then he'd pray for everybody in the world but him

Before they moved to California
His mother said, they didn't think he'd live
And she said each day that I have him, well it's just
another gift
And I never got to tell her, that the boy
Showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he'd written
Me and God love you

I've been searchin', prayin', wounded, jaded
I guess I would be still
Yeah that was until...
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves

THANK YOU RYAN!

*it felt funny when i moved on pretty fast!
i may lost you but my i met more others dat made my life more different!

Labels: moved on

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Thursday, January 15, 2009

FREEDOM!
RYAN's modern class always been DOPE!
apart from the crazy warms up, its really much worst den running 2.4km, doing the pull ups! hahah
ytd's routine was seriously BEAUTIFUL!

at times where your life get messy and lost,
you lost the trust with the people around you and you lost trust in yourself,
a dance routine made you felt the freedom in your heart, things are back into places,
a diff environment, a new hope, a new LIFE!

i cant wait for next week dance exams!
though i cant be part of the groupwork for their routine,
but i so gonna give all out for ytd's routine RYAN tot us!
and gonna practice hard for my turns! totally ytd new variations of turns made me wanna kill myself!

this SAT is FUNKAMANIA!
jia you all teams,
my team we gonna push ourselves more!
alot of things to do within 48hours!! hahahaz
GOGOGOGO

Labels: you can run but you cant hide

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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

SOMETIMES!

SOMETIMES THE PERSON YOU TREASURED THE MOST

WILL LEFT YOU FIRST!

LIFE is way more BEAUTIFUL, you can ever imagine
shit happens, be glad that it will make you STRONGER than before.

*napfa in few hours time, hope i do well
aim for silver means 5 pull ups, if i can do 7 pull ups mean i will get GOLD,
coz i have confidence in all other stations!

Labels: i am never alone

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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

ENDURE!
gosh with FUNKA coming up!
with the stupid EPS show in a few days time!
with my sch projects and assignments!
with my TERRIBLE health!
with the lab test this week!
and TONNES OF TRAININGS!

i really feel damn TIRED!
but it was damn SHIOK
IF MY TUMMY DONT GIVE ANYMORE PROBLEMS!
the pain is seriously UNBEARABLE!
i wanna be well..
PRAYING-to have GOOD HEALTH!

cant wait for EPS to be OVER! so WASTE OF TIME!

*hope the sleepless night, hope the reflection made me a stronger person!
i know i can!

Labels: i hold tighter to my faith

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Monday, January 5, 2009

WHATEVER IT TAKES!
wa RAAZMY so power today!
he finished his assignments! hahaha

wah now i m like crazy over old songs!
so shiok listening man!
esp those POP SONGS!

ANYWAY,
was browsing through the past performances vid!
i think i miss dancing with LORENCIA!
dats like the most shiok thing man!
for the first time i cried on stage wen dancing though my dance SUCKS big time ah!
alignments n techniques CUI big time!
but it was a great experienced! how i wish can dance with her again!

RANDOM THOUGHTS!
i used to tell myself to hang on n nv give up!
m i a quiter if i quit?
even though i tried hard even though i change my life?

i finally realised how much i missed being me,
i tried too hard to make a fren see how much i was there,
i tot i was hungry over treasured friendship, but i got greedy n hurt myself even more!
i missed being the irritating me, i missed being attention seeking,
i kept telling myself never forget how i started, never forget the past,
but all this just made me endure n give in but end result i dunno wat i get?
yes! i blame myself for asking too much, i blame myself for changing my lifestyle,
this new year was a rough start but dat doesnt mean its goin to be rough rite?

its TIME for me to get my ass up!
get busy concentrate on things dat benefits me,
do wat i love!
i got DREAMS TO ACHIEVE!
this dreams have to be REAL man!
n i m gonna to STRIVE for it!

TO YOU,
i think theres no point talking anymore, i don need any explanations, i don need any sympathy,
u lead ur own life, u choose ur own frens, i wont beg for ur frenship, i don ask u to compromise, i wont ask u to understand, all i can say I'M SORRY i wasted your time
asking u to come down talk,
the meet ups,
the celebrations,
the chats,
the smses,
the care and concern u gave b4!
SERIOUSLY, u wasted ur time on it!
i wont ask for anything anymore,
let it rest,

and i will search the path of my own life!
THANKS FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE B4!
the past is just memories, u look back it, it wont be able repeat, good or bad its just memories!

Labels: breakthrough

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Saturday, January 3, 2009

IF YOUR HEARTS NOT IN IT

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

haha, BACK TO THE 1990s POP SONGS!!!

Labels: i left for your own good

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