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Thursday, May 29, 2008

HONEYMOON!
bitching n laughing my asses off is something i LOVE the most!
its like wen i start bitching n laughing at my own reaction i felt super free! super let go! FRESH sia!
yesterday SIP was pretty short day! maybe coz i went to watch STREET KINGS! den chatted alot with my workcell people who are damn freaking fun ppl!! all of us are guys! n we hated this gal alot in our workcell! n we do crazy things just wanna FUCKED THE GAL OFF!
its super fun wen we gathered tgt n DISCUSS!! lolx.. super united!
after sip went to meet DEREK at mushroom to pass him BIG GROOVE TIX~ wohoooo he n SHAWN AKA CHEE HONG coming to support OSCHOOL for dat event! THANKS man.. after dat rushed down to BIZ PARK to meet the dancers as we r having meeting at 6pm in studio! settle the sutffs!
den me n ah lee went opp sch to print photos! a total of 70 photos man! hahaha...
den rush backed to bus stop me meet all the dancers n down to town to get costumes for BIG GROOVE! was pretty annoyed but yeah just heck care!
den off to OSCHOOL! to meet GIN n other intructors! talk n talk n talk n talk! laugh n laugh our asses off disturbing GIN N KH! den wen to catch our last train! tot of goin home but PANGYANG need wait for FRANKIE at bedok! so we settled at MAC! n had our meals! den its like nearly 1am, so i cabbed home! its like 200 meters away from my house! the fare like nv move lo!
went home str8 away sleep man! damn tired

27 MAY!
school was normal!
went back str8 home coz iwas damn tired!
suppose to meet JOSHUA eat at 85 market! but den!
my parents wan me follow them visit my AUNT who is a malaysian!
she came singapore coz of my brother wedding!
but i nv attend my brother wedding den yeah my parents wan me visit her lo!
so had to cancel my dinner with JOSHUA!
my dad drove us to JALAN KAYU to have our dinner first!
my another aunt came n join us too!!
talk n talk, den its almost 10pm so we headed to SEMBAWANG to go my cousin house where my aunt stayed!
wah talk n talk! until its like 1am den we left the place!
all my brothers including me like half dead alr! all of us fell asleep actually!
den headed home n damn hell i wash my feet n str8 away sleep man!

*humans are humans all of us are selfish! no matter how good or relationship or friendship is we are still very very selfish! i am pretty sick of all this shit! i am gonna be the most selfish asshole man! do the things that i wan do, hang out with the ppl whom i wan hang out with! too bad if rejected coz i m SELFISH!

Labels: seems like honeymoon for me and you

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [12:27 PM]

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

TIME CHANGE PEOPLE CHANGE!
well SIP is forever boring but yeah finally my grp get our asses up n do some work but still we slack like 3/4 of the day! well tonight will be goin to meet JOSHUA for dinner at 85 market! hope to reach home early n sleep well! hahaha,

for the whole day i have been thinking about LIFE!
whats next for me?
where will i be doing in the future?
though i do have an objective in future, still i m clueless?

had a good chat with YONG ytd nite!
talking about LOVE again of coz!
well i feel its fair for me not to go into any relationship at the point of time!
my life is like super BUSY with dance and school!
n i don even have time to sleep well most of the time!
but as both of us kept on mentioning!
LIFE WILL BE GREAT IF THERES SOMEONE SPECIAL IN OUR HEART AND BY YOUR SIDE!
it feels great to be loved!
but well maybe i wasnt dat lucky enough to have dat feeling for now!
hope it come soon and my life will be closer to perfection and could share my feelings for dat someone!
but this relationship stuffs i scared i might be a different person if i m in relationship!

will i still have the time with my frens?
will i still have the time to spend time training?
will i still be the same as the old me who loves to slack and play?

right now i am single, every nite i think about being loved?
but wat if i was being loved?
will i dare to change and sacrifice my current life?
coz its very unfair for me to leave my frens whom had been by my side all the time, my dance trainings, my happy life just coz of someone i LOVE?
ARE HUMAN THAT SELFISH?

coz i don want others to feel hurt and dissapointed like how i felt!
its painful!

IT TAKES TIME TO GET WHAT YOU WANT AND WHAT YOU NEED! BUT WHEN YOU ALREADY GOT THE THINGS YOU WANT OR YOU NEED, ALWAYS REMEMBER TO LOOK BACK!

*you asked me the question! deep down my answer is you

Labels: the right one

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [2:50 PM]

Sunday, May 25, 2008

HECTIC + CRAZY!
lets post some photos!
me n DEREK plan to have a dressing theme every week!!
so we will come to school in diff styles of dressing every week!
so the first week we started with DANCERS!
so HERE R THE SHOTS!

damn POSER i know!! lolx

SUPER DUPER HECTIC WEEK!
had dance every single day! worst thing it ended like after midnight!
its super busy until we don have time to sleep!
like after school we rushed to OSCHOOL for training den midnight back home!
den next day went back to school! OMG super duper tiring!

WORST was on FRIDAY!
i got super duper tired even in my workcell i slept like a damn PIG! literally took 3 chairs, lay them str8 n i just lie on it n slept for near 3 hrs! lol after dat rushed back home to help my parents with my brother's wedding! den after help abit i rushed down to OSCHOOL den start training at 10pm! don even have time for dinner! had to asked AH LEE buy me SUBWAY!
den train from 10am till near 2am! after training chatted while den went for supper at MAC! took NR7 home n i reached home near 4am! slept at around 445am! den worked up at 7am! prepared to go back OSCHOOL for normal class!

it was our first class with AN AN! shes like damn dope n grooving! so pleasant to watch her dance! but my weakness is like grooving so really had a hard time to relax n feel the dance!
had to train more man! after her class which is near 1 went for lunch till3pm, back to oschool den took a nap while waiting for GIN! we started at abt 4pm! den we dance till 1130pm!! rushed to look for my mum at the wedding place but wen i called her to confirm the addres shes like at home! due to some family prob! so i rushed back home to talk to her! talk n talk n talk n ask her to sleep! it was like 3am! n i m already 3/4 dead!

den at 8am i left the house to go to the wedding place to help my parents! collect tonnes of stuffs! den at 11plus i cant take it coz haven been sleeping well, so i went home! reached home i str8 away sleep coz there will be stage rehearsal at 6pm! so i slept den GIN called me to spread the news dat we shld be there early! n she wan us to be there at 330pm! n i just got my sleep! so i called some of them n missed out some peeps! REALLY SORRY ABOUT DAT! coz i m too tired!
i woke up at 230pm prepare n rushed down to EXPO! had our stage rehearsal! den ended around 8plus! went dinner with FRANKIE N JOYCE! at MAC! den 930 back home!

*i may wait for you till today but i might not wanna be with you

Labels: keep keep bleeding

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [10:55 PM]

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

BLEEDING LOVE!
wooohhhooooo an old song dat kept running in my head!! not only the song the choreo by RYAN made me go WOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

NICE HOR!!! OMG!! LOLX....

WORKCELL, DANCE, EAT & SLEEP!!
dats my daily life since few weeks ago, but is fun la.
TBG training is exhuasting, hard but GREAT!! great challenge! GIN IS GETTING TOO DOPE!

the long weekends is well spend! coz i kept on sleeping of coz!
but on the VESAK DAY we had training at OSCHOOL!! so yeah after long training we headed to VICTORIA STREET acc GIN eat her dinner! den around 11plus we headed home!
saw PANGYANG,IRIS & JUNWEI in the train, talk n talk lo...

BACK TO SCHOOL ON TUESDAY!
felt damn tired! did nth much for SIP!
but today was fun! coz DEREK came to school with HIPHOP attire! so cool sia him, look much more DANCER den me can!
met him, KAIMING, RODDRICK & FREN n had lunch at SUGARLOATHE! i spent near 10 bucks! on food, den DEREK spent like 11 bucks! lolx.. full to the max, den we headed back to workcell, i slack for a while den CLOCK OFF!

orh wen i was at SUGARLOATHE say this cookie name MUDSLIDE! wen i saw the cookie at first don wan buy den suddenly thinking abt YONG'S BLOG name, i went back to the gal n bought it, it was the last piece!! hahaha... lucky YONG!

went to find DEREK, den we went to take photos! lolx...
damn funny.. after dat went studio meet some peeps! den headed down to TCC for stage run again!
was a little agitated by the school!
after dat rush to meet JOSHUA at sports complex n headed down to 85 MARKET for supper! hehehez... WENDA was with us too.. ate quite alot! had BA CHOR ME, STINGRAY, OYSTER, AH BALLING N 2 SUGARCANES!! ahaha lolx..
after eating sent JOSHUA to MRT den i head home n sleep!

*its easy to get someone hurt but its not easy to heal it back!
give me time
i still love u like b4

Labels: you you you

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:55 AM]

Sunday, May 18, 2008

THIS IS MY NOW!
life have quite good! SIP is fun coz i kept on watching movie n not doin my job! hahaha but overall i m starting to love the people in my workcell.. coz they r freaking fun ppl whom always made everyone laugh with their acts! hahaha..

DANCE was nerve wrecking! GIN choreo is getting crazy as always! TBG piece is not even a quater done! n we have only abt 3 weeks to go.. n the rest r having term test very very soon!
having 3 performances next week for the graduation day! damn sucks coz the stage is really like FUCK!

my backbone is like SHIT too.. like freaking painful everytime i run, stand for too long n sit down for abt 5 mins is getting damn pain! told my parents about it n they ask me go xray this week.. but i really got no time to do so!! argh... got this time i think it thursday i had to call my dad to fetch me from school coz i cant walk properly..hmmmmm

SADDEST issue is i dunno i felt this way but its pretty hurting for me due to this reason! i shared with some peeps but argh i think i don have to bother coz i believe in KARMA!

ANGRIEST issue is the stupid BITCH NAME JESSIE from BUKIT PANJANG GOVERNMENT HIGH SCHOOL! owed YONG $400 bucks n never return him, she promised him last week to return this week but ytd wen YONG sms n called her she nv ans! i took her no. n friendster to seek for her.. i called her also but she nv ans!! SO UGLY yet have this kind of attitude! i spread her photo to BOHAN ask him search for her also.. hahha.. she gonna die if i find her!

SATURDAY!
had to wake up like dmn early n rush to school coz today was the juniors first training class! RAHIM ask me to do warm-ups for 30 mins which i m so in love with it.. DRILL them abit but not so hardcore but still received complains dat its damn HIONG!! hahaha.. den followed by NICOLE techniques n JEAN choreo! after everything end went to TECHNO to have lunch!
saw BOHAN,BO CHUN n their db frens eating there too.. shouted CHINAMAN but he nv realised den i saw his eyes was like damn red! den he told me he tired! aiyo.. they really damn hiong sia! so i went home str8 n rest la.. soon after i online BOHAN also just reached home, he came said sorry coz he nv heard i called him coz he is too tired! talked for a while den i force him go sleep la! after he slept i also slept den woke up at 5pm n made my way to SOMERSET met JEAN N NICOLE! FOONG was there too..

so we headed to SCAPE to watch KO NITE! it was a damn good competition this time.. congrats to RED LINE for winning this battle round! n i m so in love with EXIDENT, EVE n her partner was great ah!! omg.. with their jazz techniques n they did hiphop!! omg lo... dope dope dope!

after the event rushed down to PASIR RIS for ROYSTON 21 BIRTHDAY PARTY!
the food was great, so nice to see the rest of the seniors dancers there.. played n laugh.. den JOAN gave me this cool specs which i really love it.. the food was nice too.. den it was almost midnight so me n nicole took 17 home!!

reached home bathe n chat alot..

some photos!

*to you, thanks for the care n concern

Labels: i wanna love you

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [2:33 PM]

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

BIG TIME SLACKER!
i don have the energy to blog ytd as i was freaking tired to even chat!
so yeah ytd was my biggest time go and slack!
reached school slack abit! did some measurements on some of the motorcycles in the sch carpark!
den DEREK called me ask me acc him to CENTURY SQUARE!
so i rushed to the busstop go find him!
headed down to the bank first to bank in his money den we headed to CENTURY SQUARE to get his shoes but the shop wasnt open! so we went to TM 77 street to get a BANDANA!
shop around look for a good place to have lunch! bought bubbletea!
den finally the shop is open at 12 noon! hahaha
so DEREK bought his nike high cut shoe,
we had lunch at PIZZA HUT!
off back to school but continue slacking at BIZ PARK!
slack until 2 plus 3 den i decided go back workcell to do abit of work den sleep!
after my damn SIP ended rush to studio to recap the dance den audition starts!
it was like one of the shiok feeling learning alot alot of routines in a day! all diff styles!
RAHIM asked me choreo an item for character dance! so i m being so my self went to choreo something dat is very very porn! lolx.. but it was damn fun lo..

JOSHUA msged me he ended his track n field den he waited for me, i was suppose to end like 11pm but yeah promised JOSHUA so after i end the reggae dance i packed n went to find him!
WENDA N CJ were there too! so took a cab down to SIMPANG n hate our dinner there!
ate not much wasnt satisfying coz we still prefer 85 market! lol...
finished eating took bus 2 to BEDOK INTER! sent JOSHUA to the mrt den i headed home!
chat abit den i sleep! super duper tired!!! hahha

got training at OSCHOOL today! woooohoooooo

*i dreamt of you last nite

Labels: if it was reality

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [9:11 AM]

Sunday, May 11, 2008

POPPIN POWER PUSSY PORNSTAR!
finally dance orientation is over!
had freaking lots of fun! meeting the new juniors n playing with them!
the orientation was well planned! n i really had tonnes of laughters throughout the whole event!

APART from my freaking BACK! it HURTS LIKE FUCK! i cant even walk properly! gosh! n the PAIN is still manipulating my body till NOW!
but heck i still love the fun with TPDE!

well my whole SATURDAY starts with reaching school at 9am! but i was freaking early, i reached at 845am! so i dragged my feet to the lounge and settle down! THANKS to JOEY who gave me her HASHBROWN & MILO for breakfast! coz i was too lazy to go cheers n get myself something to eat!

10am the juniors start to come n register n of coz there r lots of earlybirds! hahhaa...
i became the GROUP LEADER for the letter P! tgt with AUDREY! haha damn fun! we started to draw the word PORNSTARS all over our body! haha... den the juniors who got into the PORNSTAR group expand the word to be more sick! POPPIN POWER PUSSY PORNSTAR! which is freaking cool! they even created a few cheers! though i heard it before at FO camp! but still they change the words to be more SICK!!! haha...

the days goes pretty long! had SPEECHES FROM THE OLD where the handover ceremony of the MAIN COMMITTEE! den we had CYPHER where we can see the potential dancers in TPDE! n of coz HAZRUL rocks the FLOOR with his crazy crazy STUNTS! omg! sickest bboy in tpde!
den we had lunch n preparation for performance nite!
afdter everything the station games continues!

ME,WEIRONG & KEVIN went opp school to get teabreak for the MUSLIM JUNIORS! we plan to buy like MASI LEMAK or something but we cant find any shops dat sells opp sch! so we bought 15 MCCHICKENS! hahah the cashier was like damn shocked la.. lolx..
had waffle stick back to sch! nice but freaking oily!
reached back school went to collect dinner at taxi stand! den i m off to preparation of performance nite!

PERFORMANCE NITE!
well it is called PROJECT GROOVE-WAY!
so so so so much fun! esp wen ROYSTON & KAIWEN were the MCs for the event!
they called themselves ROYSTON KLUM * KAIWEN BANKS!
the theme of the whole performance nite was freaking funny! they acted extactly like HEIDI KLUM from PROJECT RUNWAY & TYRA BANKS from AMERICA NEXT TOP MODEL! so so so much laughter!

ended everything den we continue the TP tradition to go CPF for supper!
the best thing happen wen we get out of school! the gate was lock so we CLIMB the gate! even FAYANNE CLIMB! hahah so funny she was freaking afraid to climb until i had to carry her! hahaah

off to cpf mac n i went home b4 12midnight coz i don wan to sleep late this time! BOHAN will just kill me again! hahaha...
went home chatted with some peeps den i just went to sleep around 1am! EHHEHEZ..

PHOTOS!

break da ice!

mass effect

jean n her BAHHHHH!!

hazrul the sickest TPDE bboy

ROSYSTON KLUM & KAIWEN BANKS

THE JUDGES!

*life with frens was so fun but how i wish my life with you! i've been and still waiting!

Labels: with you with you with you

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:21 AM]

Friday, May 9, 2008

MOTIVATED!
after reading YONG'S blog and after BOHAN saying me FAT!
i got so motivated to run! hahaha
went to read yong's blog n he mentioned dat he ran the reservoir without stopping!
i was like WAH POWER sia.. its time for me to train also!
BOHAN even dare me to challenge him run n do all the push ups n pull ups!
n he is a DRAGONBOATER! kns! but i take his words as motivation for me!
so i finally decided to go and run at the reservoir today!
i know i m damn CUI at running its been like 3 yrs i last run! haha
so after my SIP i went to the studio and change to my running attire! though i lost 2 of my running shoes i used sneakers to run today!
i actually tot i will start to walk after 1.5km!
BUT i completed the reservoir without any walking lo! but my speed was like SHIT la..
i took like 25 mins to run the entire resevoir! where i heard BEN took like 17 mins to run!
since i see abit of PROGRESSION in me! i think i shld run more den i wan to aim 20 mins! hahah...

HOWEVER!
i dunno whether its coz of the running or wat! once i start to run my backbone hurts like shit!
even until now it hurts BADLY! i can feel the discomfort on my backbone join!
i m pretty worry i might have slip disc or something wrong with my backbone! but i m damn lazy to go xray or wat la.. lolx..

HAPPY HAPPY DAY!
well i feel today was pretty fun for me but quite tiring!
i reached school at 845am today! i tap my ez link den i went to make payments for my dance fees! help LORENCIA pay also.. it took like half an hour to settle so i went into my workcell late!
after the payments i went into the workcell den i put my bag den JOSHUA asked me for breakfast! so i rushed to the mushroom to find him and had breakfast at BIZ PARK!
JOSHUA ATE DAMN ALOT!! gosh! HAHAHAHA... we slack for an hour plus den he went for his lecture!
suppose to meet DEREK but his course manager was inside so he ask me wait, den i went to meet FAYANNE to make payments for tmr orientation! after dat DEREK called me, so we met! went to the library n talk abt some stuffs ah! first time talking to him abt his LIFE! haha damn funny actually, we ended up gossip n bitching la! n dunno y today we was pretty sick! kept on sneezing! so we decided to go to the canteen to have a drink! drink n continue talking abt dance! n he wanted to wear very dancy stuffs! so gave him some ideas wat to wear! den KAIMING came den talk abit more den they left to CENTURY SQUARE coz DEREK wanted to play at the arcade! hahaha... so not long after we left the canteen! AH FOONG msg me dat shes in the library level 7 doin proj but theres a group of FUCKERS! making so much noise! so i went there to help them ah.. i only shouted once la.. but the GRP of business students just don have any basic courtesy to others! they EAT! PLAY CHESS N PLAY HEARTATTACK in the LIBRARY! really a bunch of FUCKERS!

finally they left! den i headed down to MENSA to have my lunch! after dat went back to workcell n took a nap until i CLOCK OUT!

Labels: where is the one

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:00 PM]

Thursday, May 8, 2008

WHATS WRONG?
haiz this week pretty bad for me la..
its like i'm like so happy go lucky but this time i m pretty affected by alot of stuffs!
everything seems negative to me..
my thoughts,my point of view my everything seems negative!
but well i just hope dat life is filled with positive n negative! i just take it lightly den heck watever happened can la... though i think alot this few days n made me get damn agitated quite easily.. but i try handle it properly la..

IKEA TRIP!
gosh so paisei to tell dat on MONDAY was my first trip to TAMPINES IKEA! i felt like a lost dog ah.. kept on asking MAYBELLE N KOK SHENG where we shld lead too.. lucky got MAYBELLE!! haha.. we went there pretty late but its a good thing, theres this food promotion like at 845pm they sell SANDWICHES & SALADS FOR 1 DOLLAR ONLY!! gosh.. me KOK SHENG MAYBELLE N DEREK were like hungy ghost! we bought quite alot n eat la.. den around 11 plus headed home!

85 MARKET!!
it was TUESDAY! after my modern dance training met JOSHUA n waited for WENDA to finish his waterpolo training den we headed to 85 market n eat! JOSHUA really want to eat there n it was his first time, so brought him there! we ate until we cant breathe la.. we had BAR CHOR MEE! CHICKEN WINGS! OYSTER OMMELETTE! AH BALLING! N 2 CUPS OF SUGARCANE EACH!! haha.. eat untill 11pm den took 222 to interchange, i sent JOSHUA to the mrt station den i got home n rest!!! hahah

GRADUATION DANCE!
well normal MODERN training but this time its full dress to show FAYANNE n grp our piece! well after dat we clean up steps den around 9pm we r done! suppose to go dinner opp sch! but yeah just annoyed n irritated by some ppl so i decided to go home n have my dinner at home instead!!!

SLACKEST ASSHOLE!
well came on time for school today! like i clock in at 8:59:35.. suppose to reach by 9am.. 1 min late i m consider absent!! heng sia!!! lolx... slack in the room play n watch vids! den went for lunch! had a trouble time with a classmate! i irritate him n he got damn angry! i said sorry but den he don bother! i said sorry twice! at least i bother to apologise, if he don accept n still give me dat kind of black face i also cant do anything! LOSING A FREN DOESNT BOTHERS ME! i got tonnes of frens! i have a life!... well but den i feel bad coz of the issue he sit one corner so i do ask someone to accompany him eat or wat.. don coz of me like frens get apart n such, so i just give in la, from today onwards i will find my own frens to eat n do my own stuffs! i just don wan to have this intense feelings, i feel frens shld communicate den get along ah.. i got other frens i can search n play n slack!
so after lunch i went to meet the dancers n slack at biz sch! talk abt some concert stuffs!
den KOK SHENG went to meet me n we talk abt relationship stuffs! he had to leave home for his resume! so i sent him to bus stop n wait for him to leave as i got so much time to spend! hahaha... slack more n i got back at 5.25pm to clock out den went to meet the dancers again! hehehz..

IF YOU ARE NOT THE ONE

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
but I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
and I hope you are the one I share my life with...

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it , I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?

*to my only love, i think for myself n urself to be happy i think i lost every faith in me n i think i will just move on n follow the flow of my life! i wan to be happy, i will forget u, all i had now is memorise n i m proud of u.

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [10:00 PM]

Sunday, May 4, 2008

SHE GAVE ME GOOSEBUMBS!
haha well wanna share with you guys this 14 yr old gal who can sing like noboby business!!
i m sure after watching her sing! u guys will like go WTF!

DOPESHIT!
ASIAN PRIDE!

finally today is SUNDAY!
i slept till like 12 noon den had my lunch n abit of chit chat den sleep again till 5plus..
i m so gonna keep SUNDAY as my FAV day of the week coz i can sleep for more den 10 hours! lolx..

THE DAY BEFORE!
well finally, DANCE AUDITION for the new intake has ended! well there are really GREAT ones n also those who need extra training! expect alot from this batch of juniors! so hope they can bring something to the club.. hehehez...

after the audition headed for lunch at KFC! coz the weather is freaking hot!! hahaha...
afte eating and chit chatting for like 2hrs.. took cab with GIN,NICOLE & SAM to OSCHOOL... slack around met all the familiar faces den went to SOMERSET! suppose to meet DEREK at 5pm! but he super GLAMOUR! left his house at 530pm! so i had to queue for him n get a space for him to watch KO NITE!
yeah he finally reached at 615pm n the queue was freaking long n yeah no choice i asked him to cut queue la! waited till 650pm den we are allowed to enter the studio!
gosh the place was rather small sia.. like can only fit 100 peeps!
had fun watching the competition! the RESULTS were pretty unexpected! but yeah this is a COMPETITION! CONGRATS TO red LINE,BLACKJACK,THE TEAM FROM FB! RATED PG and the rest for becoming the TOP 8!
after the whole thing ended! i cant believe DEREK went to buy tix for the upcoming dance battle event! lol.. so we headed to CENEI to have our dinner!
eat n chat till 11plus.. trying to be hooligans along the streets! den head home with the last train!! haahah

TMR! SP/SIP again!
830am in the morning again!
SUCKS man...

*to buddy! i m glad you r fined! my only wish is to see dat u r happy coz i feel u deserve to be much happy den wat u r now!

Labels: when can i fall in love again

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [4:58 PM]

Thursday, May 1, 2008

THE URGE TO FAINT!
wat a freaking hectic week!
i rarely had 3hrs of sleep a day man..
for this week i had only 2 hrs of sleep!
freaking busy sia!
oklah i don wan tell wat happen wat i did daily.. i just note down wat i had done so far for this whole week!!!! hahaha

KO NITE!
alot of TPDE ppl went for the competition!
i nv due to my bored attachment n i really had no time.
HOWEVER i still go n give them my support! hahaha

trying to be a fool at PS! i love long t shirts.. so cool..

TPDE supporters outside PS!

me after the KO NITE! doin dumb stuffs PLUS see the jacket on my shoulder! FB bought for me wen they r at TAIWAN! no nice sia.. thanks guys!!!!

JAM & HOP
well i was pretty dissapointed in my performance.. no stamina at all.. so i gotta train my breathing techniques plus STAMINA man...

preparation! trying to act DOPE but not!

after jam & hop we went for dinner at usual place lo.. ANG KIONG!

CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU!

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow show
Yes it shows
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

hha YONG ask me dl this song den i got addicted to it plus he sent me this vid dat makes me wanna laugh my ass off!! lolx..

haha damn funny hor lol..

after long time nv update each other we finally talk alot.. the trashing out sessions.. haha YONG is still the same, so low confidence.. so low until wan go plastic surgery.. kns..
chatted with him until near 4am n we need to wake up like 7am for SIP.. haha power!

VENOS CHALET!
had VENOS chalet on monday to wednesday!
plan to stay over but think again nah i nv..
i helped out in buying the food n marinating the food! wah super tired.. i marinate the food until 3am plus.. den again sch at 8am.. die die die.. but thanks to DEREK for entertaining me ah.. he with his songs trying to hype up my tiredness n also help to clean the chalet! haha

so during the bbq nite programmers were invited also.. wah there r too many ppl there until they got tired of waiting for food.. haha.. felt quite bad ah.. but the chalet was fun la... esp bitching with derek n kok!! lolx

SPECIAL THANKS!
-KOK SHENG for organising, collecting money from everyone! n being my bitching partner!
-YUAN LONG N YEE PING for booking a big place for us to gather
-DEREK for helping out in everything n being drunk too!!!
-SHAWN for driving me everywhere!
-KIWI & EILEEN for bbq us the food at late nite..
-THANKS TO ALL FOR COMING!

photos will be up wen i received them!

TBG AUDITION!
well i feel i don deserve to be in the TBG this yr.. coz i know i took forgranted not coming well prepared! n for those ppl like ANDY N TIMOTHY who spend their time day n nite preparing but they wasnt in for the performance,
i cant give the excused dat i m pretty packed with tonnes of performances b4 the audition plus my waste time SIP which takes up half of my day!
haiya! i think i really need to change my attitude n try to work extra hard!
i always envy how FREDY dance but me myself don even train hard enough!
now i was given a chance to choreo something for the next big event in TPDE.. i think its time for me to put myself rite below n start to put my heart n soul in something i wanna do...

*sometimes loves can bring u somewhere where u neglected something important in you!

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:47 AM]