it's my life

Friday, March 30, 2007

LOVES DRAGOS/OPHIX
29MARCH!
9am went for dance...
dance dance dance.. lots of discussion abt stage plan..
suppose to leave studio at 3pm since having chalet and i went to marinate the chicken..
HOWEVER..
went for lunch at around 2pm n back at 3.. so lots of things to do.. left studio at 5.30pm..
rush home bathe, took my stuffs took bus n headed to downtown..
met brother ming aranda's bus stop n went to the chalet..

OMG!!
majority came.. its was FARKING fun.. the food the play play.. was good..
den its around midnight where everybody was in the room sharing ghost stories..
yeah something did happen but yeah we plan not to sleep though..
wen for our nite walk which was nearly 2am..
went to MANGROVE SWAMP which was fucking freaky..
had a GAY nite with zhihao. he got scared and grab my arm damn tied.. haha
but the exprience was fun.. reached back the room around 5am.. played more crazy games.. TAUPOK.. total hilarious man..
suddenly everyone just fall alseep(nap i mean) at 730am.. zhi hao ask me wan go makan.. so everybody awake n some decide to go home.. i packed n stuffs den went mac with zhi hao maybellin and qioa e.. i nv eat coz ate pretty alot during the bbq..
took cab toTP sent the rest den i went home..
tot can sleep.. but chatted with brother ming for a while den i went to sleep..

3.45PM
work up by someone's call...
saw my phone with 6 missed calls n 9 msges..
wah i realised wen i sleep i m really dead nowadays..
replied wei qiang i not goin for shopping trip snce i m farking tired.. den i went back sleep
but the feeling of sleeping just not there ah.. seeing the time its like 4pm n dats the time i have to meet the rest at tamp to search for costumes..
msg wq again ask him i goin but a little later... just wan bathe PANG YANG talk to me.. den went talk to yincheng.. talk talk talk until 430.. wah freaking late lioaz..
rush to bathe.. den rush out to paya lebar met the rest..
cant search for costume..
went to far east to search.. also cant find dat much,,,
den took train home..
tiring day.. tmr 9am dance again.. lucky till 12.. so can sleep after dance.. hahaz...
tmr my cousin wedding.. oo another tiring nite..

well dats it for today. freaking lazy to blog actually ah.. but just wanna pose some pics..

Labels: i'm happy with my life now

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:18 PM]

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

FIRSTLY!!!
SHAWN YOUR THE BIGGEST COWARD/FUCKER I EVER KNEW!

SECONDLY!!
NOONE EYE ON MY GIRL!!

THIRDLY!!
BROTHER MING IS BACKED IN TOWN

FORTHLY!!
TOO MANY MOVIES TO WATCH IN TOO LITTLE TIME!!

haha!!
well today was fine!! had dance from 9am
was a little late due to overslept den missed on of the bus..
had dance so some new chereo.. den went mee yong for awhile pass him some chocs!!
wish him lucks for his papers den ruch back to studio..
dance dance dance dance den went for lunch..
gin had to leave urgently due to some stuffs..
den we just slack around in studio n wait till 5 den go..

went opp sch for bubble tea with meiqi roy n juang..
den 291 to tamp inter n 67 back home!!

continue my routine.. watch lots of movie..
so far i've covered
-power ranger
-devel wears prada
-stomp the yard
-white chicks
-harry potter
-ameraica next top model series
-some of iron chefts series
-norbit
-ghost rider
-billy eliot

its pretty alot covered in abt 4 days only.. haha after dance my life is pretty slacking so watching this movies makes me go drunks actually.. heck all those shits dat is happening to my life ESPECIALLY to those ungrateful fuck jerk!!

chatted with kok sheng for damn long today!!!
dunno we can talk really alot... bitch alot also
haha... well its our personally apinion which is very similar..
WHEEE!!!
he said he will vote for me if i run TPSU MAIN COMM!! hahaha

PHOTO UPDATES FROM CHALET!!
thanks wilberg for sending!!

(our 2 hardworking heroes ah chye n doug! setting the indoor pit due to rain!)

(slacking watching tv! while waiting for food to come)

(when the rain stops!!)

(haha me n jo only knnow how to eat!)

(parts of 511 guys!!)

Labels: shawn you sucks big time

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [12:10 AM]

Sunday, March 25, 2007

A NOTE!
brother ming left to genting.. i don have supper buddy for this 3 days!! hahah
he left me this note in msn before he left!!

*unicef MING（铭)™ 病気の封封 - 一曲肝肠断，天涯何处觅知音？ sent 3/23/2007 12:19 PM:
yo, i'ma be gone. eat ur meals and chillax.

well brother ming hope u have fun in genting! sorry i last min cant go due to my training n busy schedule!!

had chalet last 3 days.. its fun to meet the sec sch classmates but i don have time to play n swim with them due to dance.. just stayed overnight but went back to sch like 9am in the morning for dance!! been really busy n FARKING TIRED!!

after chalet on sat i nv go home went for dance at 9am den after dance went to plaza singapura to watch cheerleading competition!
TP WON THIRD.. BEATING MAGNUM FROM NGEE ANN POLY..
proud of u ppl.. haha..

went for early dinner at foodcourt den slack around for a while.. den decided to go home with nicole.. took bus 15 n both of us just fall asleep right behind the seats..

got home went online, went to search for yong since long time nv chat n talk.. he still with his cold behaviour towards me.. dunno wat fucking wrong with him nowadays.. called him wan talk but kept on replying HA? i also got damn irritated n hung up the phone.. talk online also give me 1 word reply.. WELL I ALSO DUNNO WAT TO DO!! i dunno wat is his defination of a buddy?
for me to understand him but nv tried to understand how i felt?

on well!!
TODAY SUNDAY!!
rest day..
watch LOTS of movies... really had fun watching this movies!

saw fung yong online after a week nv go talk to him also..
guess wat he said to me??

#5 fy aKa Fei Zhu...[`^-a.g.b-^] [Gay Club Clan] [TPSU] [D'verse] =) [33 more days] says:
i miss you la... hahahahahaha.. i dunoe y leh.... i just like tokin to u... hahaha..

oh well today gonna sleep pretty early den tmr another long day! dance at 11am...
DEN GOIN TO WATCH MOVIE WITH DEAR SHU JUANG!! wheeeeee!! miss her "AWESOME" RIGHT.....hahaha..

PHOTOS UPDATE!!!
D'VERSE MEETING AT OSCHOOL!!

(we r acting cool! WE R COOL!!!)

(we love oschool backfrop)

(candid shot!!)

(yeah we rock!!)

(parts of DVERSE!!)

JAM & HOP

(battle)

(jam & hop performance)

(lightings r great and i look like a runway model)

(dancers on stage)

(my pose look like shit)

FUNG YONG BIRTHDAY SURPRISE

(fung yong bdae surpise)

(surprise!!!!)

Labels: i will leave you alone

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [8:18 PM]

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

COMPLICATED
I wish I could change
I wish I could change
I wish I could stop
Sayin the same old things
I wish I could be
Who u want me 2 be
I wish I could stop
Being the same old me
I wish I could lose
All of my blues
I wish I could stop
Puttin my blues on u
I wish I could love
Like nobody loves
I wish that my goods
Outweighed my bads enough

There's no way There's no way There's no way
I can get back that girl
Cause I'm 2 complicated
And she's not complicated
But I'm 2 complicated

I wish I could change
I wish I could change
I wish I could stop
Placin the blame
I cant stop it
I cant break down
I cant drop it cant see how
I wish I could lose
All of my blues
I wish I could stop
Puttin my blues on u
I wish I could love
I wish that my goods
Outweighed my bads enough

You know its killin me
Baby how can I let u go
Suddenly there's nothing I need more

There's no way There's no way There's no way
I can get back that girl

JAMIE LOVES THIS SONG TOO!!! WAHAHAHAH

WTH??
this few days yong have been very very cold.. i really dunno wat to say alr
i'm just there trying to help but if u cant help urself too bad i cant ah...
i'm just there as a fren not even as a buddy.. u create ur own life
i just don wan to waste my concern wen ppl seems don even care..
so full of themselves...
by giving me such one word reply just fucked me up, really...

Labels: defination of a buddy?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [2:23 PM]

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

A DAY OF SHUANGNESS!!
i nv slept at all ytd nite.. chatted with pang yang until 630am den decided to take a nap till 8 den prepare to go to sch.. just put my head down, just wan close my eyes.. DEAR SHU JUANG smsed me..

Hey sexy!! I'm awake! Are you? HAHAHAHA

i tot it was my alarm.. just got up of my bed n spent hours in toilet slacking coz i had a bad headache!!! headed to sch went to get my breakfast n went into studio. gin was late den we clean up some steps(actually massaging each other due to ache from ytd physical training!)
gin came den continue with physical training which wasnt as bad as ytd but the achings made up moan like mad!!

new song new routine.. IT WAS FREAKING NICE!! i'm in love with our new routine!!
VERY REFRESHING!!
den went for lunch.. dancing our arse off in the canteen coz the song EVERYTIME WE TOUCH techno version was played... haha fun fun fun... den had lots of dirty talks with gin.. dirty sign language created by us the fellow dancers...

continue with dance... den had some chat abt some stuffs... everyday theres training man...
luckily tmr there isnt any for guys.. but thurs gonna be mad.. 9am to 5pm training with gin.. den 6pm to 9pm having contemporary workshop with dan!! xiongness man!!

after dance me n wq headed to TM to get ear stud! den bought some snacks den sat at mac for some drinks... den i was too tired i head home n wq went for his dota thingy..

well uploaded a new song in my blog.. seriously i m in love with this song.. intro by gin.. she uses this song for our qarm up n also our freestyling.. gosh! its nice..

in love with lyrics of songs used in the dance studio!!

last night by p diddy ft keyshia
If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.

hmmmmm... well hope tmr gotta meet yong!! long time nv meet him..
dunno wat he is doin also.. well buddy meet up with yeah very soon yeah..
better take care of urself man!!

Labels: its not shown but felt

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [9:04 PM]

Monday, March 19, 2007

MUSICAL......
well didnt sleep for the past 2 days... finally slept at 6am n woke up at 11am..
got myself prepared n head to sch to met the dragos(OPHIX) peeps.. gave the money collected the forms den went for lunch at design... play n play n play..
den went to lt 26 for some briefing... its was like 245pm i rush down to studio for dance..
PHYSICAL TRAINING WAS FREAKY.. MUCH MORE WORST DEN RUNNING 2.4!!!
all of us got so damn tired we just fall flat n rest!!
routine starts... it was fun!!
I LOVE IT MAN!!! KRUMPING!!!

oh well gonna dozed off early tonight hoefully coz tmr gonna be in sch by 830am..
no late comers anymore haha... gonna have a damn long day of dance tmr...
den juang also asked go oschool for reggae class.. lets see how tmr!! VERY BROKE NOW..
been spending like nobody business... cab here n there n its midnight samore.. gosh gosh gosh!!

alright dats it for today.. hope tmr physical training isnt dat intensive.. gonna have aches tmr for sure.. haha...

well have a good night n good day ahead tmr...

TIME CHANGE PEOPLE DO CHANGE
WE CREATED OUR OWN LIFE!!

Labels: i gave up

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [8:34 PM]

DONT COMPARE
ME WITH YOUR
"LONG-TERM" FRIENDS!!!
COZ I'M NOT YOUR FRIEND!!
I'M NOT THEM...
I AM RAAZMY!

GET IT???????

Labels: yes i forgive you and i also forget you

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:40 AM]

Sunday, March 18, 2007

FORGIVE AND FORGET
have not been sleeping since ytd.. felt so tired but just cant get my eyes close and my body rest for at an hour! argh!!!
however today was pretty cool..
its SUNDAY!! lots of cool show to watch..
its like i was in front of the tv the whole afternoon..
though i was all alone but i did enjoy myself today
watched..
-doll master (chinese horror show)
-love is on diet(love show acted by andy lau)
-bio of paris hilton (E! channel)
-good girls gone bad (E! channel where good young celebs gona bad wen they r older)
-amazing race all stars
-american next top model cycle 7

den! had a long long hours in the room blasting of music dancing like a mad dog in my room!!
finding different type of style n just try to groove to the music n adapting to the style..
watch oschool vids for preferences... i sweat like a stinky pig man!! but it was fun.. cant believe i dance for like 4 hours... I'M SO GONNA LEARN MORE REGGAE!
cool myself n went to bather den watch soccer with my grandpa den yeah its 11plus.. chatting online!!

urgh... brother ming in sad mood
den qiao lost her wallet!

KOK GUAN KEEPT ASKING ME Y ALOT OF PPL CALLED ME SEXY DANCER?
wth!! urgh i dunno its a compliment or insult man!!! hahaa oh well
sai sai sai

tmr having dragos gathering but gotta rush for dance!! hmmmm..
intensive starts tmr.. OMG!!

Labels: i have to get used to it

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:02 PM]

Saturday, March 17, 2007

TO BROTHER SHAWN!
life is fulled with ups n downs
the world might be against me now
being rejected n regretthing this whole journey
is in my mind..
telling myself I CAN DO IT
i my current motto
its been a torturing days for me but yeah
i do hang on..
i found better things to do in life
the people around might thik its wrong
but i do enjoy it..
all human knew money is NUMBER 1..
though i repay all u back EVERY stuffs u got me
somethings i cant
EFFORT & CONCERN!
how i wish i can find something to repay all this to u
well all i can say is a sincere gratitude
to u..
thanks for the effort n concern shown before
i initiated to end everything
coz i hate being insulted n humilated
infront of unknown humans..
but its over, i accept it with warm n open heart
have a good life
brother shawn
GOODBYE!

REFLECTION!
juang said we looked slimmer taking photo in mrt!! lets see!!

well after the dance comp which was totally suck i left the dancers n head to parkway to get the vit c pills.. den watson to get hair wax.. den go round n round to find the vit c strepsils..
took 15 n head to pasir ris.. walked for half an hour to reach the pit 50.. i sweat like shit..
the walking distance back was disastrous! upon reaching the carpak i vomitted.. ran to the toilet to for some wash up.. den got myself a drink den walk again.. cannot make it i just flag a cab n head home.. ate my medicine n went to watch some shows with my bro.. laugh our ass off watching this chinese show.. now waiting for my youngest bro to get my dinner.. just wanna have a proper meal for the day!

Labels: i once trust

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [7:55 PM]

SUPPER!
for 2 days in a row i've been goin supper with brother ming!
well of coz it was fun! talking cocks and emoing at the basketball court listening to emo music..
the first day i left around 3am and seond day around 1 am..
prata was nice, otah were great.. best was puffing... controlling not to get too addicted though,
well sometimes in life we just need to do something that is totally stupid or wrong to everyone around.. but yeah i'm just taking a break of this whole cruel life..

hmmmm.. been listening to my background music over n over again.. always got stuck from the word CHOICE! haha.. guess i made the right choice to continue my daily life..
as what brother ming said.. life is all abt getting used to it..

aite! got to get ready now n head to outrum for some vid shooting thing.. gonna meet the crazy dancers!! YAY!!
hopefully end early so i can drop by PARKWAY n get some stuffs..
den heading down to pasir ris or whereever i can find shawn to return him ALL his stuffs dat he gave or borrowed me.. since he ever told me i'm materialistic, i'm giving back every single stuffs he gave me, i just dont wan to owe anybody anything..

alright update later at night!!
have a good day~

Labels: choices

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [8:40 AM]

Friday, March 16, 2007

WEAKNESS!
on wednesday, the moment where the dancers were trashing our our problems, clarifying things and what we expect this group shld do?

i remembered i told the group my biggest weakness is TRUST!
i trust everyone easily too easy dat i take it too seriously..
i used to trust everyone in the group since we were all selected for the competition,
and promised each other we will put full commitment n such..

HOWEVER!

time passed, shit happened
someonehow i got very insecure with some people and when it happen right in front of my eyes, i totally lost the trust in them, TOTALLY!
but
i do tell them i don believe in words, i don believe in conversation or communication wise..
all i need is action, prove me..

IT GOES TO EVERYONE AROUND ME..
in order to be respected, earn it yourself

Labels: hanging on?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [12:21 PM]

Thursday, March 15, 2007

FREEDOM!

changed my blog song again! haha...
jas lee just made me fall in love with this song!
she set it as her ringtone, its keep on playing n just made me fall in love with this song..
den fungyong sent me a dance vid also got this song..
n i had been listening to this song for the whole day...
hot song for lyrical hip hop! coolio!!

well today went pretty slacking ah...
woke up pretty early.. chatted with yong for a while den brother ming came talk to me..
i went to take some pills den i doze off for like 3 hrs..
woke up n decided to do some laundry as promised to my mum..
done it pretty fast den watch some dvds.. INITIAL D n my competition vids..

LORENCIA BATTLING MOVES MADE ME SO HOOOHAHAHAHHA..!!
her latin is great!!

my youngest bro called offering me to treat me dinner.. since i haven even eat any meal of the day.. the only thing i ate was 2 oranges, i asked him get me chicken rice..
den my parents were back from work so we had a family dinner.. ate until i m freaking full den off in my room to slack n listen to more emo songs..
felt so free listening to all this songs..

well update more if anything interesting happen later or wat ah.. now back to my emo songs n watching more dvds...
monday intensive training gonna start so take this opportunity to rest man..

I ACCEPT EVERTYHING THAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE BUT ONE THING I WILL NV ACCEPT IS BEING INSULTED OR HUMILIATED N WORST STILL IN FRONT OF A WHOLE BUNCH OF PEOPLE I DUNNO...
try putting urself in my shoe..

Labels: heartless?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [8:45 PM]

EXAM RESULTS!!

well in the morning gibson called me ask me the results not out yet.. so i tell him don tell me the results r out coz i will be having a day outside, having meetings n stuffs..
i woke up at 8am den chatted with brother ming until he left for job interview..
xiao pei called me asked meet her at bedok interchange at 1215.. but she was a little late..
wen to central stop b to take bus 2 to oschool.. but jean was late.. bus 2 left den she came.. waited den decide to take cab down to oschool.. decided to chill at oschool so we bought subway for lunch n slack at oschool while waiting for gin finish her lunch with her frens.. waited for like an hour finally shes back..

went in studio to discuss things n trash every single hapiness.. well i hope this team don have anymore selfish problems n stuffs.. everything seems fine now hope this will continue n we gonna make it for finals n make TP proud of us..

after dance wei qiang ask me help him out for his brother bbq.. since i m prety free n the gals went out for lunch den i just took train to pasir ris n down to downtown east n help his maid bbq stuffs...wq mum is damn cute ah, say i look guai n behave like a guai person.. she also reminded me to think of myself more den ppl around me.. haha.. i help to bbq a few chicken wing den wq fren eugene came.. talk alot of cock with him though.. watch dancefloors which was OKAY only.. den played but card games.. had some forfit den we decided to leave..

eugene plan go for supper n nearby my place so he can drive me home also.. his 19 n his own his own car, COOLIO!!! yupz went to 85 market just order my sugarcane n shared some fried oyster n more chattings.. saw weisheng,clifton,tat ming n more su pplz there.. haha.. well we continue talking n eyeing!! den decide to leave lo... so here i m now at home chatting n sleeping soon..

OHYA! I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS.. CONSIDER MYSELF VERY LUCKY.. VERY VERY LUCKY LA....BUT I DEPROVED ALOT... NEED TO BUCK UP NEXT SEM..

well ciao i go sleep..

a new days has come, meeting new pplz making new frens n more to come.. trashing all shit dat had happen.. will nv happen twicw anymore.. i swear to myself to be selfish..

Labels: who understands?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [1:00 AM]

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

SOMETIMES YOU CAN'T MAKE IT ON YOUR OWN

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...

Where are we now?
I've still got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Labels: goodbye

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [9:36 AM]

Monday, March 12, 2007

CLEANING IN PROGRESS!

before

after

for like one month my house keeper told me she wan clean my room, i say NO! due to exams.. i need study den alot of papers n files n books here n there.. i told my housekeeper no need clean coz i find it easier for me to find my stuffs coz i know where i placed them.. so she only do my bed.. futhermore the competition makes my room more messy coz i have to search for costumes.. den sew my costume in a small pathetic room..

so today i really plan to clean my room since noone will be at home, i can just take out everything from my room to the living room n clean the room more organise.. i started at 12 noon once my grandpa left for lunch at my mum's shop.. both my brothers went for tuition... i took 2 trash bags to clear my stuffs.. clean n clean 2 trash bag not enough.. i used a total of 5 trash bags.. GOSH! i found dat i nv even throw my N LEVEL BOOKS LA... while cleaning i drop a glass so i went to the kitchen to take the broom n dustspan.. without realising i step on the glass i just went to the kitchen, suddenly i felt my feet like wet.. looking at the floor my footsteps were all around the house ah..

it was like 4plus.. 4 hrs of cleanup n its only 3/4 done n this shit happened.. the blood like non stop flowing ah.. i went to wash it n ITS WAS FREAKING PAINFUL!!! argh!.. i took 3 plasters to cover it but its still bleed badly.. so i just took a clothes n tie to my feet n wen into my dad room took the first aid box n bandage it.. i went back to the kitchen grab the mop n mop the whole house..
back to my room..
finally get everything done.. i took a bathe n just stare at the comp n wait for ppl to chat..
watch akeelah n the bee with my dvd protable player... meanwhile chatting with some peeps.. but some just pissed me off with lots of lame ques.. after the show finished wen to talk to yong.. yupz until now talking to him lo.. both of us r having a pretty boring day.. haha..

well waiting for shawn to call me.. confirm he gonna call me after 12 la.. i m pretty shag n tired..hmmmm.. dunno wats the plan for tmr either.. so bored..

Labels: how am i suppose to understand?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [10:02 PM]

Sunday, March 11, 2007

FINALLY!!!
i didnt sleep the whole night not bcoz i was too excited over my dance competition its bcoz i was on the phone with shawn until 4am plus.. den continue smsing! its really crazy! at abt 6am i decided to bathe and guess wat after i stop smsing shawn n our stupid quarrels i kept on vomitting non stop..
my damn stomach was damn cramp n its damn painful, i just stayed in the toilet for like hours.. i went out after i bathe n saw 5 missed calls from nicole.. felt so bad to keep her waiting.. she even called my house n i dunno wat my bro answered to her though..

she picked me up around 715am n we picked fazlin from her house n headed to ngee ann city.. do our stage marking den rush to oschool for extra last min practice den preparing for the comp itself.. get my hair done.. foundation done n cab down to ngee ann city to get make up done! well we do not have much confidence while preparing just hoping dat we get over the competition done smoothly..

DEN!
its our turn to dance! we did a pretty good job though there r still some minor mistakes here n there but its over only the judges can decide.. our comercial was freaking cute n funny lo..

WHILE WAITING FOR RESULTS..
forced to go on stage for battle.. yeah i did my jazz thingy n krumping n showing off my flexibility.. it was a fun experience to see alot of good breakers.. BUT I WAS MOLEST BY THIS FUCKING GAY DRAG QUEEN.. he was so fucking disgusting.. telling the host he is a pro jazz dancer where he cant even turn properly, placed his hand all wrong n not flexible at all.. the whole crowd saw wat dat bitch did to me.. xiao pei came to me n say.. my face turn damn black wen the gay shit touched my chest down to my thigh.. it was freaking gross but i showed him my moves.. THE HOST CALLED ME VIBRATOR! wth!! haha

RESULTS!!
we didnt won best costume.. we spent more den 200 each on costume but we didnt win it..
BUT!
we won BEST SUPPORTERS!
thanks SU ppl for coming down to support standing under the hot sun with the banner n the tp cheer! u guys really rox.. den tp cheer team also came down.. tpde juniors came down to supprt.. some of my ping yians members came down too.. n YINCHENG came! i was totally stunned to see her there.. she told me she cant make it due to her fren;s party but she stayed throughout the event with her fren yiling n bf! thanks lots guys..
we won 3RD FOR COMERCIAL ITEM..
our spiderman n superman r damn hilarious ah.. den thanks rinna for painting the huge murals!
n other comercial members whom spent lots of time on it..
lastly
WE WON 1ST IN DANCE CATEGORY!!
this part we cant believe at all.. we nv expect dat we can win.. after announcing 2nd position we were like ok dats it.. no hope.. den wen the host announce our team, there were silence for like 2 secs n we just burst in joy n tears.. like GOSH! we made it.. we went up to perform once again, all the confetti all over us after the dance.. see all the supporters jumping behind.. n i did the tp cheer n they can hear it n respond to it also.. SO DAMN HAPPY LA..

after clearing of make ups n change of costumes headed down to cenei for dinner.. den me,juang,rahim,roy n meiqi went paragon to sit at starbucks, chatted a while den i realised i m having a bad bad bad headache.. so i left them i got home.. took bus 14 n slept, i woke up by this stupid 3 bitched making so much noise n they were sitting beside me.. an hour of journey i realised i m still at katong area.. with the noise my headache just gone bad to worst.. i dropped down the bus n took taxi home.. get home i bathe n took my painkillers to sleep.. i tot i could wake up at 12 midnight or wat.. i went dead n woke up around 6am.. seeing my phone with 10 missed called n 6 msges! i wonder m i really dead or wat.. nv b4 i cant even hear my tone.. its freaking loud but i cant even hear anything..I WAS TOO EXHAUSTED N TIRED i guess..

PHOTOS

(our super heros)

(murals drawm by rinna and painted by comercial peeps)

(before dancing)

(tears of joy)

(group pic with diana ser! after results!)

11MARCH!
meet xiao pei n nicole at 1030am to head down to ngee ann city again to meet gin n watch the 2nd round competition.. well talk to gin for a while n she went missing with her frens..
the competition today was tougher den ytd.. they were good.. but commercial was pretty dissapointing for some.. results known for top 3 teams.. n the top 4 teams whom will go to finals we announced too.. YES WE DO MAKE IT TO THE FINALS.. we r the only team for ytd round got into finals lo.. so cool sia.. haha.. dat mean today teams were strong..

after the event, me juang roy meiqi fazlin rahim n wei qiang headed to lido for meal.. i had my SUBWAY! the rest got their own meal ah.. talk n talk n talk.. n shop shop shop,, i was too tired so i decided to go home also.. JUANG ASKED ME GO FOR THIS BUNGY JUMPING with her next week.. its a 1 and half min thing n we have to pay 30 bucks for it.. haha lolx.. yeah i shld be goin if i got nth on.. haha lolx..

this week i just wanna rest n home as much as possible.. den i wan help my mum get the house done also.. n i have only 5 days of rest n intensive train returns.. haha lolx...

Labels: i am giving you up seriously

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:07 PM]

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

WANNA SAY THANKS TO MY DEAR PARTNER SHU JUANG FOR SEWING MY BLAZER!
HAHA... SHES MY POLICEWOMAN! HAHA KIDDING

Labels: wheeeee

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [8:54 PM]

SHOPPING!

ytd after dance from 11am to 5 pm shu juang asked me out for shopping at chinatown.. so bad of her to skip her class, haha NOTTY gal! wen after dance waited for her like ages as she went to change.. meiqi, roy and fazlin want to follow us along, so yeah haha.. took 23 from sch to boon keng n took NEL from there to chinatown.. went to peoples park to shop.. juang got the scaft, fazlin got her ribbon and i got my fur! den mei qi n royston went to another place to get roy's specs.. met again at mrt den headed to marina square.. its was alr like 8pm.. told juang to go home but she still wan follow.. so yeah headed to marina, met fazlin bf den she went shopping again. so meiqi got her green top after like an hour of shopping.. den all of us were dead hungry, took damn long to decide where to eat. in the end we went long john silver.. fazlin bf paid for all our meals.. though we feel damn weird but so nice of him..
after meal decided to go home.. took train, had a great chat with fazlin bf..
from at tanah merah n took 45 home..

my DEAR partnet SHU JUANG!!

the irritating royston

diva meiqi

sexy fazlin

after reach home on my comp, bathe n chat.. talk to yong for quite sometime until he went to sleep den i also went to sleep..

7 MARCH!!!
woke up at 10, start to give rahim morning call but he nv ans.. i even brought my phone into the toilet to call him but no ans.. i rush n prepare to sch.. was late for 5 mins.. i still kept on calling rahim.. n i finally realised my batt left with 1 bar!! gosh.. i heck alr..
had a team personal conversation, alot of arguments n stuffs.. in the end move on with the back up plan.. where i replaced the main lead but its just a back up plan just in case..
dance n dance. eat n eat den its 5.. tot of goin bugis with the rest but decided to go home. coz somehow i miss my parents n brothers alot.. have not been at home for the pass few days for me.. so yeah.. reached home saw my younger bro watching tv.. i asked to prepare n both of us went to find our parents.. took 2 to simpang.. den had dinner together.. though i ate noodles but i felt so fat now!
told my parents faster go home coz i felt like puking anytime..
headed home n str8 came online n blog.. haha..

alright dats it for today! goin to sew my costume n get it done by today.. another full dress tmr..

WELL SHAWN, WHO M I TO U RIGHT NOW?

Labels: wat a holiday?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [7:48 PM]

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

GREAT FEELINGS!
well is nearly 7am n i m still not sleeping..
later at 11 i m having dance but heck coz i had a great midnight session chat..
hmmm all i can say is dat i had a great buddy whom went thru ups n downs with me since i entered poly.. i dunno how to express this feelings.. it feels so good when a buddy of urs said things like i appreciate u alot, it feels great chatting.. wat else can i ask..
well BUDDY!
we might have tonnes of disagreements over some topics or situation but nowadays we get thru it pretty fast n it just made us understand better..

greetings from me to my buddy:
lifes is not abt the result its all abt the process, the world nv see how nice ur product is, it sees how good ur product works.. i wish u all the best with ur life, u know i m always there nv once i say no i cant..anytime anywhere anything i m there.. haha

Labels: tears of joy

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [6:40 AM]

KILL ME!
ytd my cough was damn bad until everyone were damn shocked n worried..
today was alright,
BUT
my headache is getting from bad to worst,
i dunno y? i ate medicine, i ate the vitamin c shawn got for me and i eat proper meals today..
y m i still feel really sick? argh..
with my sickness plus the probs i m facing plus the dance competition,
PLEASE TAKE A KNIFE N STAB ME.. really i feel so lost n confused now..

Labels: do you have a heart?

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [12:46 AM]

Monday, March 5, 2007

WHAT IT FEELS...

what it feels when someone say things to you that might hurt you
what it feels when someone blemed you
what it feels when you called that someone and the person just cant be bothered to talk
what it feels when you haven ended the conversation then that someone just say NVM i wan rest..

AND THAT SOMEONE IS YOUR BUDDY WHOM YOU TRUST THE MOST?

i feel abit shitty but i dont blame him though but sometimes its just pretty disturbing when u were there to help or try but u were given this type of remarks..
i dunno how to explain issit me who take things seriously or u who cant be bothered at all.. i really dunno..

OH WELL OH WELL
today was pretty alrights except for the communication things.. dance was intensive, tmr will be my turn to do solo.. felt so much pressurise la..
den wen arab street with qiao, pris n wq.. took a cab there.. find their stuffs.. den went dinner den watch some dance vids which was flawless.. den pris left home, me qiao n wq went shopping again.. me n wq got our top, mine was abit gay but heck ah..
den qiao left for oschool to meet ryan me n wq went fareast to get a cap.. took cab to pasir ris since someone i dunno paying for the cab. HAHA lolx.. took train back home.. bathe n stuffs n back online.. hehehz..

Labels: its time for us to take a break

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [9:53 PM]

HURT

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

Labels: i dunno wat to say already..

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [9:56 AM]

Sunday, March 4, 2007

2nd MARCH!
MOVIE, MOVIE, MOVIE
woke up in the morning n felt sick.. throat was damn dry..
slack at home.. watched the dvd shawn gave me..SIMONE, pretty cool show..
while watching the movie yincheng ask me call her wan talk coz shes swimming n tanning alone.. talk talk talk for dunno how long until both our batts went empty..
so she went home online den we continue talking.. den decided to catch a movie..
ask yong along, plan the time n stuffs.. so i went interchange to wait for bus 32 to meet yincheng at her house first it was freaking long.. decided to take cab den fetch her from her house and went bugis.. yong was half hour late, upon reaching we walked around searching for my costumes but cant find..
decided to go vivo city.. dat was yong n my first time stepping into vivo..
supposingly plan to watch norbit but last min went watch hannibal rising.. damn gross show.. i kept on hiding behind yong back coz dat freaking show is damn bloody!
OHYA! we sneak in long john silver into the theathe also. haha..
after movie decided to go home at its nearly 10.. all 3 of us took 10 sent yincheng home first.. den me n yong walk to parkway to take 43.. had a short chat with him in the bus but i gotta drop at paya lebar n he continued his journey back home..
went to shawn house to return him the cd and he gave me a bottle of vitamin c, strepsils and some vitamin c sweets.. he walked me to the coffee shop for me to have my supper den walked me to the busstop and i headed home..
headed home continue talking to shawn on the phone for dunno how long also...
den decided to put down n sleep as i m having dance at 9am the next day..

3rd MARCH
COOLIO!
woke up at 730am, gave xp a call.. ask her get me hot tea, den made my way to sch and i was like 10 mins late.. dance n dance n dance.. had filming but full dress still posponing.. after dance headed to techno to have our lunch.. eat n eat.. TALK really alot.. had a great conversation/bitching with the dancers.. n its was like 3plus so decided to go home.. went home suddenly saw yong online and see his nick, HANDPHONE DOWN! den ask him need spare phone, den he said ok... but den i was too tired to meet him dat point of time and he was tired too.. both of us decided to sleep, den i woke up around 8plus disturb my brother.. den msn yong told him i making my way to his house soon.. i prepared myself, took my jacket as i was feeling really unwell.. reached his house stop i saw the econ minimart still open.. wen in search for some chocs for yong! cant find anything interesting though.. den just got him his RITTER SPORT chocs..
DAMN FUNNY..
i was having headache dat time i gave the cashier some money which i dunno how much also.. so i waited ah.. den the aunty kept staring at me.. den i was like fuck la can faster? we were like staring at each other for like 1 min.. den she aunty say lack of 40 cents.. i was like OOOOOO!! haha..
walked up yong house called n gave him his stuffs.. den he walked me down to the busstop.. talk n talk n the waiting time for the bus was damn long ah..
felt bad for yong coz he injured his leg but still walked me out, futhermore the busstop n his house is pretty a distance.. the bus came den ming smsed me ask wan go for supper at tamp.. since i m alr outside at sengkang, y not. i said ok.. got pretty bored after sitting 10 seconds inside the bus.. called shawn n talk to him, talk to him until i reach tamp.. wa die my bills sure goin to be a BOOM this month..
met ck n ming at inter den headed to prata shop to eat..

OMG! SAW THIS DAMN PRETTY GAL AT THE COFFEE SHOP AND SHE WAS ALONE!
ASKED THE COFFEE SHOP GUY WHO IS SHE.. DEN HE TOLD HE SHES MIXED.. ANG MOD N PHILIPHINES!! GOSH.. SHES LIKE PRETTY AND SEXY.. ME CK N MING KEPT ON GOIN TOILET TO SEE HER.. haha ok we r not dat despo..

after supper it was nearly 1am.. so decided to go home n rest..
took cab back home n wen talk to yong online again.. talk until he went to sleep which was nearly 3am.. i decided to sleep also coz need wake yong up at 930am for him to go work..

now i'm slacking.. waiting to eat my bbq fishball.. soon goin to head to shawn house.. den at 3pm theres dance outside.. so yeah.. hopefully today goin to be a great day..

6 MORE DAYS TO COMP.. I'M VERY EXCITED.. FIRST TIME REPRESENT TP, I M VERY HONOURED..

Labels: i just cant get you out of my mind

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:34 AM]

Friday, March 2, 2007

28 FEBUARY

had another belated birthday surprise from jamie, janice and joyce!
so cute la they all.. thanks babes!! haha..

(the hat is so cute with my initials on it..)

went out with them to collect pay, den headed to PS for shopping!
went subway to have our meal.. gosh PS subway is damn anoyying with the irritating fan! argh!
ryan came along also..
den we went slack n slack tot of watching movie but the mood isnt there so yeah...
and it was raining so decided to go home lo..
went home kept on chatting with yong coz both of us were damn bored ah.. he got so annoyed of the boredom n decided to sleep..

yincheng msg me ask me go clubbing but its was too late minute n the weather seems very sucky.. as she went in the club, she called me a few time to talk to her.. haha..
well i reminded her alot of time not to get drunk, so worried ah..
as few days ago wen i was studying at kallang mac, making my way home with rosie n mong, theres this philiphines woman came out of a cab with an ang moh guy.. she was drunk and the man was like shouting at her and abusing her.. damn mad ah this people...

i cant sleep, den shawn called me talk for so long on the phone, dunno abt wat also ah..
den decided to watch some dvds.. watched BIG MOMMA HOUSE 2.. damn funny ah..
suddenly yong came online at abt 6am den chat with him n stuffs.. had to give him a morning call at 6am.. i scare i overslept so i decided not to sleep.. continue watching X-MEN...den called him at 9.10am den i went to have my "beauty sleep"..

1st MARCH

since i slept at 9am which is already 1st march.. woke up at 1pm, i had only 4 hrs of sleep...
prepare n went to meet shawn at eunos.. went town to have a haircut.. uncle sam(my hairstylist) damn funny ah.. he wan me look good but he is making me look like a damn gay ah..
he TRIM MY EYEBROW! omg.. craziness... well today haircut was pretty ex but yeah..
ohya brought half the cake that jamie bought for me for shawn to eat while waiting for me la..
after haircut went to ceneileisure for late lunch.. had subway again haha.. den went search for my costumes.. pathetic i cant find dat damn v neck dirty green shirt.. shop for 2 days still cant find... den decided to catch a movie..
shawn really had A BAD TASTE of movie.. i swear dat damn show is freaking shit.. so boring.. but he enjoyed it.. after movie shawn just annoyed me n i just left him and went home ah.. but he manage to find me in the bus but yeah i don have mood for futher exlainations so heck him until reached my house area.. but yeah he went to 85 market just to accompany my eat.. damn stupid ah.. had my unhealthy food there.. oysters ommellete, bbq chicken and carrot cake and sugarcanes..
so sent shawn to the busstop for him to go home since its near midnight.. n he forget to give me the birthday gift he bought for me also..
he called me wen he got home den i told him talk online.. he told me soon but i waited for 1 fucking hour but nv come, i told him no need come alr.. den i went to watch X-MEN 2.. den sleep!! haha..

well today plan to clean my room!
den wait for yincheng call whether she wan go for movie or not..
if she nv call i goin bugis to find my costume den...

Labels: shawn is an asshole.. WAHAHAH lolx..

I won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away [11:00 AM]